Thursday, September 15, 2011

Sharing Hope

Six Years ago a 17 year old girl sat on the floor against her bed with her journal, writting out her pain as the tears fell, a couple bottles of pills in her hands... Where was hope? The pain and the fears closed in around her until she couldn't take it anymore and in the strangest ways, thankfully fear won out this time. She fell to her knees and cried out for answers, cried out for hope. Hope answered in a caring friend, a brother... hope answered in Jesus. I was that girl, and that friend was my big brother who told me I had purpose, he showed me I was loved and that I was worthwhile... that I belonged. He told me about God.


Reflecting back on this day this week as it is just getting over National Suicide Prevention Week, and here I am... two and a half weeks into college, six years after that fateful night and my life forever changed for the better. I remember my dreams in high school to be able to be a voice- to be able to tell people like me... people who have felt alone, have hurt themselves and have drown themselves out in unhealthy relationships and behavior in hopes to find love and purpose. In hopes to escape the pain. I am discovering more and more every day that I have a voice. Whether it's in my writing or in actively sharing with people the hope I have and the discover of who I am, and helping others find themselves.


Today, here on the campus of the University I attend, a group of approx 15-20 people sat in a circle in a small room sharing personal stories of pain, stories of how suicide has affected their lives. Both students and faculty alike meeting to bring answers and hope to the hurting hearts around them. The city I live in is said to have the 3rd highest suicide rates in the U.S. and the High School having on average of 2 students a year committing suicide, and that's not even mentioning how may attemps there are, how many are living without hope.

Studies from World Health Organization show that In the last 45 years suicide rates have increased by 60% worldwide. Suicide is among the three leading causes of death among those aged 15-44 years in some countries, and the second leading cause of death in the 10-24 years age group; these figures do not include suicide attempts which are up to 20 times more frequent than completed suicide. Looking at how many occur around the workd a year it equals up to about one death every 40 seconds! The age group I am most involved with as I pursue youth ministry and a career as a high school English teacher, 15-19 years show the highest hospitalized attempt rate; 13% of hospitalized attempts in the U.S. alone! We are in desperate need of HOPE!!! There is an urgency in me to wake up and reach out.. to make a change, to make a difference! To share my story and my hope that I now have in Christ.


So what do we do with this? How do we run to stop the bleeding? We know the warning signs, we make ourselves available, we care. We listen to them and we take them to the people that will help them, we show them love, we show them hope. We do as Jamie Tworkowski (Founder of the organization To Write Love on Her Arms) did. I am inspired by the story of Renee and the hope that Jaime and his friends brought to her life. That's the difference I wanna make in this generation, in my city... but even that is just the beginning...


To find out more about how to prevent suicide, knowing the warning signs and what to do to help, visit

http://www.who.int/mental_health/prevention/suicide/suicideprevent/en/index.html

http://www.sprc.org/thismonth/index.asp

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/suicide_prevention.htm

To find more about Renee's story and the To Write Love on Her Arms organization, check out http://www.twloha.com/vision/

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Guess Some People Just Aren't Cut Out for College Life...

Wow.... I can't believe I just finished my first week of college at The University of Montana... It's been an interesting road, filled with several challenges with many yet to come, I'm sure... but I feel just as sure as ever that this is right where God wants me to be :)


I have been working toward this vision that God planted in my heart almost 2 years ago and now I'm finally seeing it happen. I have a dorm room and a room mate who I am excited to get to know and I am moving in officially this Labor Day! Classes have been close to perfect as well with a British Lit, and an American Lit class, along with Latin- another (pseudo dream of mine) Well, most classes at least except for math ;) but even in that God has brought some wonderful connections with other students at The UM.


Today I got the chance to see some people I've known from my past, friends that have sorta faded into the background, the ones that you see the facebook posts but never really talk to anymore... and then some who you still chat with every now and then :) I love how God uses every single thing for His glory... never wastes anything. Love the challenges the homework brings and the discipline and the opportunity... hard to put into words the grandeur of this new season of my life and the adventures that are in store...


Best part of it all: After a week of school, I am beginning to connect with amazing Christian people in the Chi Alpha ministries and expand my circle. Never realized how big of a promise it was when God told me 4 years ago when I moved into the Missoula area from Hamilton that He was going to "Bless me and enlarge my territory." I'm blown away at what He's doing with it all, and I know He's not finished yet. Talking to a couple of the girls from the Chi Alpha group tonight made me very excited to see that there are other people on campus that share my vision of bringing real life changing encounters of a loving God to people at UM. To really try to walk as Jesus did in the best way we know how and continuing to grow and build one another up along the way. I'm seeing God's promises being fulfilled over and over again, along with the move happening in my family as I chase after God's purpose for me.


It's been interesting to see several of my friends facebook status's about not liking college and I guess it's true that some people are not cut out for college life, as for me.... I love it! ♥