My Purpose: Now- For Such A Time As This

My heart is burdened tonight with the spirit of this University. My mind is flooded with so many thoughts and questions, so many feelings. Especially toward our response to the sexual assaults that have occurred. God, my heart truly breaks for what has happened to these individuals and I wish so badly that there was something tangible that I could do to help. So many have placed these walls around their hearts and I feel as though I keep running into them. I understand the self defense mechanisms in that, but I also understand the sin. The arrogance and pride that come with a hardened heart make me sick. I know that there is a lot that is unseen, so much that is a spiritual war raging around me, and I can't help but to believe that I've been placed here for such a time as this!

The atmosphere on this campus is so upsetting. So many students who feel the need to party and fill there lives with so much idolatry. The liberal mindset that tells us we are free to think and do whatever we want when we want... well we are paying for it dearly! We have set ourselves up for this! Why can't we take responsibility for our own actions, for our own sins?!

We have so many people living in fear right now. Crazy because I have felt that fear- I walked the streets of downtown LA and prayed the whole time, afraid for my life! God gave me peace... and protection. Tonight, like so many nights, I walked across campus alone, late at night, and even here- to be honest, I have felt that fear. But not tonight. Even with what has happened as of late, even with the knowledge about the dangers that we should be aware of- there was no fear. Only heart break and the voices of so many girls who are upset over "society" making us this way, making us afraid. Maybe it is society, but it is individuals that make up society, and each individual plays a role in some way or another. My fear in the past came as a result of nearly being taken advantage of, but I stood my ground. I had a voice.

Now My heart aches to think of the girls who might not have had a voice... who had perhaps been drugged or silenced in some other fashion, But this drug ridden culture here in this city has made it so easy! I've found that I'm realizing, in perfect timing- now more than ever- that I have authority over darkness. I have authority over this spirit here. Over the many spirits that choose to manifest themselves over this campus and create the oppression. The hope we have is in the promise that Jesus will trade our brokenness for something beautiful- beauty for ashes. God, I just pray that you would give me wisdom on how to be a light here. How to be a voice and a witness to the hurting and the broken. Every where I go- to my dorm, my hall, my building, my classes, all across campus!

It blows my mind to think that God looked into eternity- down the tunnel of time- and strategically placed me at the University in this season. He knew that I would be enrolling at this specific time, in this moment, created for such a time as this! Truth is, any of us that claim your name have that same authority and it's time that your army of saints begin to rise up and fight on behalf of the lost and the broken here in this city and on this campus! Now, with a new level of freedom, a new found confidence in who I am, and the authority, identity and purpose I have in Christ, I know that God has got something crazy in the works here! Jesus, I only hope we see your Spirit's leading.