Circles. It's crazy to think of these patterns in my life,
the people that have been brought into it and
the gifts that they bring with them.
Their stories, their personalities, their talents...
every essence of all that they are- who it is that these people are,
that seem to so quickly grow very dear to me.
This is the sort of thing that I feel the need to lift my eyes heavenward
and cry with tears of joy, the goodness that my life holds now.
I can't help but think of the dark pages of my past life,
My days of teenage angst and heavy depressive state.
There I wore a cloak of darkness, now I am robed in light.
I'd like to think I never wore a mask, but I guess we often do.
My face was one of of sorrow and pain and now I wear
the smile of a joyful heart, and that girl I used to be
holds but faint traces of the girl I am today, my artistic heart
and curious spirit have now been brought completely to life
and my God has given me a home in which to thrive! A garden
in my heart- a place to rest, to be content. What are circles
in the midst of all this? The thought that each life touches
so many others, we're all intertwined and there's nothing that I have
experienced that will not somehow play out or speak to someone one else's
heart, another life, like wings on butterfly, creating earthquakes
somewhere far, unseen... someplace we might never hear of... I'm learning
this truth through the youth of this generation and the more I invest
in these young hearts and minds- the more I seem to learn about life
and about myself, about God, and the purpose for which I live and laugh and
cry and breathe and sing. I will be among the first to say that my life
is nowhere near perfect. I have bad days, have my share of sorrows or
pain but I am content. I love where my life stands as of now, now
that's not to say I'm never moving forward or that there's things that
need not change... perhaps the better sense is that of trust, which then leads
on into contentment. I may not have it all together, I most certainly
still have questions, but I will trust that God, that in His timing will
shine light on all things and continue to perfect my life... and... my world. <3 p="p">
"Even the worst of days with Jesus are still better than the best of days without Him"- Misty Edwards
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions” -Rainer Maria Rilke
Showing posts with label Relationships. Show all posts
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Thursday, February 2, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
♥ The Heart Of It All ♥
"Each life effects the other- the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one." Ruby Pier ♥
One moment. One moment can change so much. That moment when I was presented with the possibility that nothing is in fact coincidence, I wanted to believe it- Honestly, in many ways I do... but this morning has me thinking back on a lot of my life. Remember relationships... some so beautiful that I could scarcely believe they are true and some- some so painful that I wish I could reverse time and take it all back so that it never happened. Why such thoughts? haha. I heard a quote today that hit me hard. "Strangers are but family we have yet to come to know" -Mitch Albom
My mind plunged into thoughts of all the people I have ever known and all the people yet unknown... people I have seen but never met. People like Ashley, whom I met on a Missions trip to the LA Dream Center. All this people are so dearly loved of God, and He has had our lives overlapping and linked together for a reason to make something glorious of it. I think God wants to do some deep healing in my heart. In all of our hearts- and sometimes He uses people around us to do that.
Lately I feel as though I have had a divided heart. Not in a bad way exactly, but as if I have been standing at a fork in the road for quite some time. I stand knowing that God has a purpose for me, but also that I have the choice in which path I take. This is the very heart of this blog, I think... learning to take the road less traveled, yet still stay on the path in which God leads me.
I'm standing here wondering where I need to be planted and who will be there to guide me. And even as I write this I realize I have been planted right where I need to be and God himself will guide me. I also know that God has designed me to be deeply relational and I need people in my life to help me grow, that God has planted the desires in my heart for a reason, and I so long to see them fulfilled. Time is teaching me patience, but also to be content with right now and understand the blessings I have in front of me... which surpass anything I truly could have imagined and far beyond what I deserve. I'm also seeing more and more- that the best is yet to come.
My friend Carrie once told me that I was gonna change the world. It blew my mind to think of it- still does, but I see now, each action in my life is like a ripple-effect and the more I lift up greatness in others, the more I myself will become great. That is what Christ taught, "whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be a servant of all." (Mark 10:43-44) My desire is to teach others that also, because the truth is, we will all change the world in some way- we will all leave our mark. Hopefully for the better. Looking ahead to the new year in 2012, I anticipate new beginnings, new mistakes, new adventures... but not forgetting at all the past and what God has taught me. He knows the things I must carry with me ahead... on the road less travel by.
One moment. One moment can change so much. That moment when I was presented with the possibility that nothing is in fact coincidence, I wanted to believe it- Honestly, in many ways I do... but this morning has me thinking back on a lot of my life. Remember relationships... some so beautiful that I could scarcely believe they are true and some- some so painful that I wish I could reverse time and take it all back so that it never happened. Why such thoughts? haha. I heard a quote today that hit me hard. "Strangers are but family we have yet to come to know" -Mitch Albom
My mind plunged into thoughts of all the people I have ever known and all the people yet unknown... people I have seen but never met. People like Ashley, whom I met on a Missions trip to the LA Dream Center. All this people are so dearly loved of God, and He has had our lives overlapping and linked together for a reason to make something glorious of it. I think God wants to do some deep healing in my heart. In all of our hearts- and sometimes He uses people around us to do that.
Lately I feel as though I have had a divided heart. Not in a bad way exactly, but as if I have been standing at a fork in the road for quite some time. I stand knowing that God has a purpose for me, but also that I have the choice in which path I take. This is the very heart of this blog, I think... learning to take the road less traveled, yet still stay on the path in which God leads me.
I'm standing here wondering where I need to be planted and who will be there to guide me. And even as I write this I realize I have been planted right where I need to be and God himself will guide me. I also know that God has designed me to be deeply relational and I need people in my life to help me grow, that God has planted the desires in my heart for a reason, and I so long to see them fulfilled. Time is teaching me patience, but also to be content with right now and understand the blessings I have in front of me... which surpass anything I truly could have imagined and far beyond what I deserve. I'm also seeing more and more- that the best is yet to come.
My friend Carrie once told me that I was gonna change the world. It blew my mind to think of it- still does, but I see now, each action in my life is like a ripple-effect and the more I lift up greatness in others, the more I myself will become great. That is what Christ taught, "whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be a servant of all." (Mark 10:43-44) My desire is to teach others that also, because the truth is, we will all change the world in some way- we will all leave our mark. Hopefully for the better. Looking ahead to the new year in 2012, I anticipate new beginnings, new mistakes, new adventures... but not forgetting at all the past and what God has taught me. He knows the things I must carry with me ahead... on the road less travel by.
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